Dear Diary,
The most obvious thing I can say right now is, “it's 2025.” Have you ever tried imagining explaining time and dates to someone who's lived their whole life never measuring time. Someone who never had a birthday or knew what day they were born on. Someone who never experienced Monday morning blues, a had a boring Wednesday or partied all weekend. I imagine getting them to understand why we have it in the first place will be quite a difficult task. What’s the point of time? It can be useful when telling memories, I guess? But is it really necessary or does it complicate things?
Right now, I am lacking focus. Sitting here with 10,000 thoughts and an entire story running in my head. I really want to be busy working on editing my book and finishing it, but the motivation is hard to muster sometimes. Right now, is one of those times. The book Atomic Habits by James Clear, I just finished reading it last weekend, talks about creating a habit by making it easy but consistent. Something easy is five minutes but it must be every day, at the same time, at the same convenient place. I guess sitting here at my desk on my laptop with Microsoft Word is a step forward in the right direction. One step closer to my dreams coming true. It’s 4:30 in the morning. I got up at 3:30. So, I showed up, I'm at my desk, I’m working. This counts. Right? I don't know. My mind is wandering again.
I'm very excited about my book contract. That's all I've been manifesting lately. I need to make a dream board. So, this year, 2025, my goals are quite simple. I'm going to get 250 camps in at my gym. My gym is quite intense so if I get 250 camps I will have a very fit body no doubt. My next goal is to keep alcohol at bay. This goal of quitting was successfully accomplished in 2024, but we've got to keep going strong in 2025, that's this year’s goal. And finally, my last goal is to make sure that I am spending more time writing and as a writer. I’ve written two great novels and there are countless other novels that I still need to write in my head. The one circling now, causing my lack of focus, is a conversation between an elderly woman and a man about thirty years old or so. She is attempting to explain time to him…. In addition to writing more, I will be spending more time reading, which enhances my craft and helps me grow. My last goal is to spend more time in focused positive and purposeful thoughts.
Negative thoughts still try to get me. They attack. I deleted my Facebook and my messenger on New Years Eve because the past tried to come back for me in the form of yet another one of my ex’s women. When will the madness end. No one has ever hurt me as bad as he has… well let's think about something else instead because I will not think about that anymore.
Italy 2025 is going to be a blast! It’s a girl’s trip and I can’t wait to start booking and planning. So far, it’s four of us, kind of a perfect number actually. I should make a dream board for that trip as well. Then I can take pictures next to the places that ended up on my dream board, that's how dream boards work. In fact, there's probably Italy on some of my old dream boards that are stored away. I always took the words off the pictures so I can just see the pictures and imagine places similar to that. For me it doesn't really matter where in the world I go. I want to go anywhere in the world or rather everywhere in the world. On Earth only though. I’m not interested in “outerspace” whatever that is…
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